I remember the day I found myself.
A few months after ending what I thought was a true love, a few months before leaving college, and a few months after losing a best friend.
I sat alone.
My college had a hidden labyrinth in the woods behind the school and it was a great place to sit and ponder, collect and regain the wandering thoughts that whisked through my confused and tired collegiate mind. Which road would I take. I could no longer afford the path I was on, and the one I had laid out just wasn't where I wanted to go. I walked the labyrinth carefully and my tears fell before each stone laid out before my feet. I asked for a sign, I prayed for an answer, I needed to know that everything was going to be okay. I felt my road had ended and the signs were blurry. Do I stop, make a U-turn, or is this a dead end?! Just then the most gentle of all large creatures crept out from behind a small bush. I stopped and then made seemingly long eye contact with a deer. A beautiful majestic doe that in no way knew her significance of being where she was, when she was. I could have sat there for hours waiting for something so amazing to come my way, but I then began to understand that life brings us everything for a reason. The earth, the universe, mankind, it's all set up in a way that sets us in place. In time, for meaning. I knew who I was. Who I wanted to become. Free. Open. Educated. I quickly ran back to my dorm room and scribbled down my thoughts into a journal. It finally dawned on me that I was in control of my path. I was in control of who I am. Who I become and what I believe. The things that gracefully enter my life are there for a reason and I can embrace them or part ways. Since that day I've become me, of course I am still working on keeping my beliefs, my positive energy, and my own free will...but with time, it will be perfected.
A photo I captured of my college.
Photo of me at the labyrinth